Sexting

Wow.  Just engaged in what I think the kids these days call sexting.  Not fully so...more a bantering back and forth with K while he gets ready to head to the airport.  I cannot wait to kiss him and to feel his arms around me.  I really hope he means to do every last thing he mentioned...well, maybe not all at once. ;o)  The sweet torture of anticipation is, I believe, his dastardly plan...and I like it...A LOT.  How did he know to tease in just the way he did?

Today I thanked the universe because I feel really lucky right now.  Not only does he answer many of my wish list items for relationships in general, it really feels like we are moving organically more toward where I want to be sexually. We've talked about some of our individual preferences, but I haven't fully disclosed everything I think I desire and neither has he.  Yet, he keeps taking steps in those directions. =)

I also thanked the universe because the hard work this past week and in the next two means that I have about four more months of breathing room for finding a job.  The time away from K was hard, but having "bought" myself more time up here to spend with K while I continue my search was so very worth it.

The squeak in my head has changed a bit.  It's not "I hope I don't jinx this" kind of thing so much anymore.  It's more "is this authentic to both of us."  I continue to try and be straightforward and honest; being my plain, dorky self.  He seems to be doing the same.  I really need to find the off button to my worrying and just enjoy the moment.

I'm giddy with anticipation at seeing him tonight...he can't get here fast enough.  I actually feel a bit nervous for some reason.  Where's the TARDIS when you need it?